S a l l i e F u l l e r t o n —
Popular Science
The airport kiosk is entirely self-serve so too
are the restaurants, which wait patiently
as screens.
I had been thinking of life like an ice sculpture
that melted and disfigured into new
mutilations which sometimes were beautiful; that balded
one’s essence and became slick
and I was right.
Time was on my side:
I could order whenever.
Or
as I walked the street, tar was burning
through my rubber shoe. It came up
towards my foot imperceptibly
until my gait changed, deepened and was
uneven.
I am certain of you, of the nightmare
in which you betray me bluntly
then wake in early light
(brighter, somehow, from behind blackout curtains)
begging still for coffee.
“Onion-like space explosion”
got buried again today despite its flashy
graphic. A new star
is not relevant. Start small; make moves
in silence.
Mine are so vague
you can’t look directly at them.
Our sun can be
a piece of nothing to fidget with while we wait
or a secondary character whose presence was balancing
the whole production,
unknowingly,
until they died.
Or
The Big Bucks HD console vibrating to give the sensation
of firing a real gun. Two men are shooting at the bar
in broad daylight, killing bucks
or male animals. The player loses a point when he shoots a doe
or female animal.
The men sweared at each other—
“fuck you” and the plastic went
thrumming.
All of this could occur within the frame of a day
not to mention all the satellite
fits of language I didn’t think
to tune to.
I hate being stuck on a particular thought, waiting around
so the poem spools and catches in self-
conscious ways. I’d like to
hold you at the elbow, fingers extended
towards a sun
Or
to what you will never know
what I am closer to knowing
wiser now
by virtue of being alive.
.